A long wait.....

Oh my God...it has been a year now since my last post ....it seems like it was yesterday only ....life moves so fast !! so what was i doing all these days ....hmm I was busy with a lot of things ...i did a lot of things in 2k9 ....it was a great year for me ....but not as great as i thought it would be ...although i ended up as a failure but still i enjoyed doing things ...and have learned a lot of things that would make my next failure a little bit harder to come....
well last year around the new year days i was like psycho ...my friends had already started to notice it ...ya i agree ...i was kind of ....but it has nothing to do with me ..and its because there were some people who betrayed me ..my faith in them ..who gave me so much pain i could not bear ...the people whom i loved the most respected the most ...and eventually i would have ended up as a psycho had not i taken the charge of my life ...so it was a triumph of me over myself ...and that's why 2k9 is a great year for me ....
From the beginning of the year i had 5 things in my mind...ya guys these are my 5 resolutions that i talked about .... 1-it has been in my mind since my childhood ...guitar ...my father had bought me a guitar since i was 5 ...but i never could learn it ....never got any chance ....so it was time to stop thinking and start acting....so i joined a guitar class...and for continuous 3 months i practiced guitar for 1 hr daily without any fail...ya i didn't become a Jimmy Page but i learned the basics and my thirst is quenched now...
2-Badminton .I was never a great player ..but i always thought that if i could be given a chance ,a platform i could be one of the finest players ...and finally i got a platform ...satish n ganju's apartment ...i found an indoor ...and i could not stop myself from going there ...during that time i was waiting for Saturdays and Sundays ...and i would wake up in the morning (i mean around 10am ) and would wear my badi shoes and get ready for some great games....Sanjay was also there with me ..and we would go to the indoor and play unlimited games ...oh it was great time ...but only lasted till the apartment guys introduced id card system ...we had to stop ..but by that time i had played enough and thought to take retirement from the game....
3-Gymming -I had never been so active ..i had always been a lazy guy..but 2k9 was different ...i went to gym for 3 -4 month regularly without a brake ...and it was a great experience ...
4-All the above things came to a halt when my preparation for CAT began ..honestly speaking i had never studied so hard in my life ....but in the end i failed drastically ..so CAT and MBA is not for me i found out....
5-I thought that I would change my company ...would go to a better one ...but failed here too ..though i did not try much ...but still i could have done better had i taken this resolution a bit seriously ...


So this is what i did in the last 1 year ..nobody knows it ....as i was staying alone ...no contacts no friends..no calls no visits nothing ...i was all alone ...it was a great experience ...staying with urself only urself ...had not been to home too for a year now...but everything is in control ...so finally my wait is going to be over ...

So what's next ...don't know ...i have resigned to join my friends for a startup ..ya its guidingshadow.com ....do register here ....so no more jobs..no more experiments..no more studies ....my real life starts from 12th march ..last day of my 1st and probably last job...

Expressionz....

Let me start with the significance of the title of my blog..few days back I had been to Bhubaneswar ..I was really very happy as it was my second visit to my home town within a month ..well the occasion was very special that's why i got the leave in the midst of the scary recession days..i was not quite sure whether my job would be there when i come back ...but thank god nothing of that sort happened..and i am doing quite OK now..it was my sister's marriage..my complete family was at our house..around 30/40 members ....our home was filled with guests...and the atmosphere was charged but nostalgic ...i was meeting some of them after years...and some of my cousins have got kids now ... the last time i met with them was when i was a kid ...i don't know sometimes it just so happens to me that i completely forget everything ,all my friends , myself n i just go to another world ...and when i come back things would have changed drastically ...well i m not alone in this field ..its just that i m a bit lazy unlike others to keep contact with old friends..
ok ok let me come to point..so it was sister's marriage day ....i dropped her at the beauty parlour for the make up stuff ..my grandfather was also with me..after leaving her there my grandfather asked me if we could go to his office as he had some work there....he's actually the head of a dumb and deaf organization..so we reached there ..its a small place just behind the Bhubaneswar airport..an old building with an administrative block and a small school and a hostel...i was waiting outside in the car...then i saw a window half open..it was actually a hostel...and when i tried to observe a bit carefully i could see 2 little hands moving rapidly..actually there was a little angel ,a very cute girl talking to another girl..then i tried to observe more ...and i could see the little girls face glowing....then i saw her expressions ...then i realized that she could not be a dumb girl probably ...because how can someone be dumb when her eyes speak so much ...there was smile ..laughter ...her rapid movement of her eyes ...her joy ....probably she never realized that she was dumb...then i tried to see my own picture ..i have got a big mouth ..2 strong hands ...2 big eyes ...and an OK kinda face ..but ya i am for sure more dumber...more worrisome ..a more complaining ...a dukhi atma as compared to that lil girl ...i had probably never utilized my mouth ..my speech ..for eulogizing somebody ...it was only used to pull somebody's leg ...or talk against somebody and so on, all the bad things that could have been done with it ...that day that little girl taught me a lot of things ...and probably i am still trying to learn a lot from her ...and hope u guys will too....n that day i decided that this dumb guy has to speak...

A bit about me ....

And so does it begin...well for the last few days there were so many things in mind but a few people to listen to it almost none ...so i decided to go public ;) ...well for last few months i almost don't have much contact with my friends except a few colleagues in office(was awarded as the best deshdrohi for this lately )...so just thought of putting my views in words so that people will be getting dynamic updates about me if they are interested...
Well what will you find here ....don't know i ll be just writing whatever comes to mind...starting from my views on various issues,movie reviews , music ,sports n games ,things about myself,my latest crazes ,lessons i have learnt from life ...basically it will be random...so if you interested in these things you are most welcome...but sorry you wont be able to find great litelarary work here ...and FYI my english is not that good...though i ll take utmost care to write properly , human errors will be inevitable...and one more thing your advices and comments are vey important for me...they will give me chances to improve as well as give me feedbacks on my writing...so plz feel free to comment..